Job Hunting...still

So here's a thought. I hate filling out job applications. I hate that I have to fill out the same exact stuff every single time and that it takes so long and that I know someone more qualified than me is applying for the same job. It is such a hit to my self-esteem. I read this article in this months Cosmo (yes Mom, I read Cosmo) about how those of our--well, my--generation are more susceptible to feelings of inadequacy when life doesn't go according to plan. I would just like to say that if your life can ever be a described almost exactly in a Cosmo article, it's probably time for a lifestyle change. Which is the state I'm currently living in.

If there is anything I have learned in my now 20 years of moving and financial struggles, family feuds and personal failures, it's that life is anything but perfect. Life just happens and you can't predict or control it. So why we (those of the Millennial Generation) see it fit to take it personally when things don't go how they were supposed to is beyond me. I say that because I do it too. Every semester I don't attend college, I take it personally and I blame myself in some way for not making it work out. Every time I lose a job I see all the mistakes I made and I think of how I screwed up. Every time I break up with someone... oh wait, that's never happened. But I guess the point I'm trying to make here is that I'm too hard on myself. Yeah, I make mistakes and the choices I make do have repercussions like not going to school, not having a job, not having a boyfriend, not fitting the model stereotype, not whatever, but that doesn't lessen who I am as a person and I can't let those things define me.

I have a lot to offer and I realize that more and more everyday. I am talented and funny and smart and fantastic. Eventually someone is going to see that and give me a freaking awesome job. Because I deserve it. And I need it. I just have to endure a few more job applications.

"...peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment; And then, if thou endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high; thou shalt triumph over all thy foes."
--D&C 121:7-8

On a brighter note, I got "The Song That Never Ends" stuck in my aunt and cousin's heads.

The end.