A blog? For me? Could it be? Indeed, I am writing a blog. Currently I have no goals, no ideas, and no clue what to do with a blog. But alas, here I am.
Today is a music day. I have these days almost every other day, seeing as how, I'm addicted to music. It's my brain sometimes. I have been known to bust out in song at a moment's notice. I think it keeps life more interesting, but really I just always have a song, or multiple, in my head and no filter. I say what I think. It can be dangerous. And I digress.
Music days are usually pretty unproductive for the most part. I typically just sit at the computer and find a song or two that I really want to listen to at that moment and try to find more like it. Or I'll listen to songs I haven't heard before by artists I really like. Either way, music days just include listening to music all day. New music, old music, odd music, anything I can get my hands on. Today I'm in a, A Fine Frenzy, Meiko, Imogen Heap, Snow Patrol kind of mood. Slow, mello indie songs about life and love. Mostly the love part. I never feel like can relate, but that I could if I ever had a relationship to refer to. Oh well, as said best by Death Cab For Cutie, "someday you will be loved."
I have to think that now is the time in my life to really become who I want to be. Because the fact is, I will get married one day and when that day comes, I don't want to be confused or unsure about who I am and what I want. I had a religious leader one time tell me, "now is your time to be selfish." I have the opportunity to steer my life in whatever direction I want it to go in. I just have to figure out what direction that is. Fun, right? Being a responsible adult sucks.
I think I might just get the hang of it one day. We'll see. For now I think I'll just run in hide from reality in my musical fortress of solitude.
Hope this whole, blog things goes well for me. Knowing me, I probably won't post anything for like a month and a half. But until then look up:
Such Great Heights
Naked As We Came
&
Flightless Bird, American Mouth
by:
Iron & Wine
Super cute, right? I thought so. The thing is, I'm not a big hat person. Or a headband person. Regardless, I love these things, but I want something else. I want to find something else I can make so I don't have to spend my nonexistent money on cute things. Really, that's my life's ambition; be cute for as little money as possible. I'll let you know how it goes. This could take a while. I have a tendency to call it quits and never actually finish any of the "projects" that I start. Hence the whole big box as mention above. Better luck this time, I hope!
